Why can't life just work out????

Being 31....

Okay. So if you are squeamish about sex, stop reading.....if not, is anyone else going through this?




I feel like I am becoming the stereotypical "man". I am thinking about sex 24/7. I know that it is said that women hit their peak in their thirties, but this is borderline ridiculous. It is not affecting Justin and I in any way. Actually, he is probably the most happy man on the planet. I don't want to have an affair or anything like that. But, there are times when I have an attractive student walk in and I can't help to think "he's cute" and then drift off to no where land. I guess, I wonder if this is normal or if I need to seek professional help. HAHAHA Comments?

I just LOVE my kids.........

Well, as usual, I am up for the mother of the year award..


I tell you, I can't seem to get this parenting thing down. Just when I think that I have a good handle on how things are supposed to go, up comes another curve ball. I have long thought that if I had to make the choice, kids or career that I would choose kids without regards to anything else. But it seems that I have a real dilemma. For all of your moms/dads that have complacent/docile easily agreeable children, stop reading now. (I know, not possible, right?) You might just be unable to understand. For all else, be warned, I am going to be completely honest........Any suggestions are greatly appreciated........Here is the situation:

Ty- He has always been my emotional child. He takes everything to heart and reacts accordingly. He is stubborn to a fault and has trouble with thinking he can't be successful no matter how much I try to boost his self-esteem. He is shy and awkward when it comes to new situations and experiences. He is the oldest and unfortunately, my test to all new parenting issues.

Liv- She is my fiercely independent child. She likes to see how much she can get away with. From a very early age, she has mastered the art of manipulation and can lie to your face without even thinking twice about it. She thinks that she can do anything Ty can and is in constant battle for the "in-charge" spot of siblings. She has little to no fear for new situations and is always trying to prove herself older. Her life ambition is to become a "rockstar". Scary, hua?

Liam- He is just my sponge. He sees the turmoil between Ty and Liv and it affects him. He has been slow to talk and therefore throws tantrums with the best acting, I think he deserves an Oscar or at least an Emmy! He loves to be outside and he has shown that he will be independent and stubborn too.

Here's the problem: I work from 8:30-5:30. I can drop off the kids to school which is great. But the afternoon is a tightrope act that I am always trying to stay on. I pick up the kids, find some quick, easy, nutritionally based dinner I can magically make in 5 minutes or less (okay, really 30 minutes, but you get the point), quickly diffuse any fights over who get the "yellow" cup or who has more room than the other, eat, then bath, homework, bedtime story, bed. Every day!

I can't stop working for two reasons: I need the money. I have debt I need to pay off.......And if I am going to be anything when I grow up, I need the experience.

So what to do?

Quit and try to find a balance between having to struggle financially and devoting time to my kids and their behaviors

Or

Stay working, pay off debt and try to manage a miracle in the short time I have every day?

Either way I feel is a no-win situation. Both affect me and the kids on a long term basis.

So there you go, I am officially pulling off the mask of the perfect mom. I am not her, sorry to disappoint anyone. I am just trying to make it through another day with out looking back and having CNN question my parenting abilities when they talk about my horrific children.. HAHA

Anyone feel the same?

Have any suggestions?

So it starts......

okay...here is the first time I have ever done anything like this......but here goes.

I just wanted a fourm to be able to chat and see if anyone else is like me, confused, excited and totally overwhelmed......

Life is really crazy I can't even explain all that has changed in the last few years.